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lyrics
I can't let myself change
I learn from the same mistakes
the same flux, I stay the same
it's like I'm addicted to the pain
something to write about
maybe now it's dull like my fantasies
my brain is toast from the kush, silence the savagery
flying close to the sun, feel the warmth and the loving heat
I can't let myself change
I learn from the same mistakes
Maybe it's a blessing I'm still hungry
I want to take my breath and just say something
I don't know what the problem is, don't want to rap about happiness?
I guess fuck my accomplishments, don't follow through in every sense.
Have I said what I have to say? Feel like I've said nothing
Did I give what I have to give? Feel like I gave nothing
All this passion, all this talent, and all these songs
nothing tracked, and it's like, what did I do wrong?
Trying not to be an old head so these kids don't start with me
Trying to tap in with this viral marketing
All I got was sick of the business, now I'ma do it for myself.
I'm saying fuck the traditions, I'ma do it how I want.
I can't let myself change
I learn from the same mistakes
Maybe it's a blessing I'm still hungry
I want to take my breath and just say something
I been looking in the mirror not feeling myself
Things are so different, disconnected from youth
My trilogy complete, said what I said now what do I do?
Just speak the truth and let it all come to you.
Maybe it's a blessing. These grey hairs on my face, is it age or just stressing?
Either way, I'm not a kid anymore, but I want to be.
When you can do it all and nothing's set
I love what I've done, can't say I regret
the passion for music, every note in every set
Every word is me. How I've earned awards yet no success.
I find it kind of odd, maybe it's subconscious anti-marketing self sabotage
Any plan was offset, can't say I lost any bet
'cause I never had the faith in myself anyway, bet
My most passionate shit, I left with no hits so y'all will just skip me 'til I'm gone, then get sad and collect this body of work and wonder "what could have been next?"
If it is self sabotage, I guess I refuse to correct.
I just hoped to blow up overnight with less energy spent
I'm adaptable, I'll get swept up in the mess, but
it never happened.
I can't let myself change
I learn from the same mistakes
Maybe it's a blessing I'm still hungry
I want to take my breath and just say something
Maybe it's a blessing I'm still hungry
I want to take my breath and just say something
Why am I depressed? I'm clean, hard working, with the girl of my dreams resting her head on my chest.
Maybe that is my success. If it wasn't for my music we never would have met, imagine that.
Maybe slowing down is best.
12 years in a band and now we finally connect.
On the road broke and you there with me, you better than the rest.
You deserve me at my best but I put it into this.
One day I'll be someone.
One day I'll say something, but I confess
things are changing and I feel like a mess. It's different.
I've done so much to reflect on my whole past, what's next?
I'm blank. Sorry to be that with you.
I'm stuck in the middle thinking it's the end.
Never thought I'd get this old considering all my friends.
Maybe it's a blessing I'm still hungry
I want to take my breath and just say something
'cause the end comes quick
it's like
Brain Rapp’s recent album deals with the ups and downs of real life: health scares, bad breakups and newfound love. Bandcamp New & Notable Oct 10, 2017
